A Heart After God!
A heart after God is all I want. I want to touch heaven and change earth for His Kingdom. However, there are times when you feel like you’re just not worthy or good enough. The lies of the enemy are resounding so loudly that it seems to be the only voice you hear until the Lord clears his throat and brings you back to him with his truth—I am good enough, because it’s him who does it anyway.
Like his word says in John 15:5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing.”
When you are working hard to hold onto a promise, like I had been for over sixteen years, it can be a roller coaster of emotions. Plenty of the enemy’s arrows of doubt and unbelief can derail you in seconds causing you to barely hold on to that promise. You may even question each step of the way, like I have been doing.
I can’t tell you how many nights I lay awake praying, and crying out to God, “Are you really going to publish this book, Out of The Darkness and Into The Light? Are you going to do anything with it? I don’t even feel adequate to even write. I’m just not good enough. I never went to college for writing.” Blah, blah, blah, I would whine to the Lord about the promise.
But God always remains true to his word. He is faithful to those who love and fear him. I believe he honors those who truly seek and have a heart after him! And in his timing, the promise will unfold.
I always dreamed of winning a contest and having a seal placed on my book, which is really His book, and low-n-behold, it has finally come to pass. I am super-duper excited!! We serve a great and mighty God!
If you are holding onto a promise, don’t give up! It could be waiting for you just around the corner!
Vanessa Matheny, Christian Author